This weekend God reminded me why He brought my best friend and I together in the first place. If you have been keeping up with my blog then you know that recently God took our friendship through a really difficult time. He was stretching us and strengthening us in ways neither one of us saw coming. There were moments and it was even hinted at in conversations that we weren't sure our friendship had a future. That solely rested in Gods hands. There were weeks of silence between us and it was difficult. However God was moving.
During those weeks of silence God was louder in my life than ever, reminding me of the person that He is calling me to be aside from daughter, sister, and friend. It was hard having Him strip me of the identity that I had grown so comfortable with and start out fresh. Those weeks of silence were hard, but they were exactly what we both needed. My best friend doesn't need me to be her provider, she doesn't need me to be her comfort, her encourager, her strength, or her protector and I don't need her to be any of that for me. What I need from her and what she needs from me is to be the woman of God we've been called to be, nothing more and nothing less.
Somewhere along the course of five years we took such an incredible blessing and twisted into something we thought we needed. We were wrong, but God is gracious and now He's redefining our friendship for us and we couldn't be happier! I couldnt be happier!
Now there are a couple reasons that I wanted to share this with all of you. The first reason being that its always better to trust God, and because most of the time we dont understand what He's doing trusting Him tends to be harder also, but more often than not the hard thing and the right thing are going to be the same thing. Secondly, when you ask for a friend, a best friend, like I did, do whatever it takes to keep that friendship underneath Gods covering especially if that means that you have to let go, because I promise that its worth it. When I first met my best friend I didnt like her, and she didnt like me, but it didnt take long for that to change and when it did I knew that she was going to be around for a long time whether I liked it or not. That was a promise that I had from God and I hope that you know Him well enough to know that He doesnt make empty promises. But, life gets hard and insecurities are breeding grounds for a million other things, including doubt. Doubt is destructive, so please learn from my mistakes! I was so afraid that something was going to come in and disrupt my "perfect" little world that I never thought twice about the fact that the destruction of my world would be the doing of my own hands. Luckily God loves me enough to take it from me when He realized that I wasnt going to put it down until I had nothing left to hold. I can honestly say that now Im not even holding it and its doing better than I couldve hoped for.
God is so madly in love with both of us and wants nothing but the very best for us and every step of the way He has been right! He knew what I wanted most and better than that He knew what I needed most and managed to give me both, I just simply had to let go and let Him to His thing. My God is madly in love with my best friend and so am I, if for no other reason that because He is. If God deems it worthy (and He has said that of everyone) than I know that its worth it!
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