Missing You

Ever miss someone so much it hurts? You fight to forget. You fight to act like it's all okay. You fight only to fail. You think that if you hold that truth in then everything will be okay, but it won't. Holding in the truth only hurts and it doesn't get better. You try to shut out that ache, but soon enough you're shutting out everything. Then numbness sets in and you can't even enjoy the greatest of days because you can't feel it. Trust me, I'm speaking from experience. And if you're not careful numbness will lead to bittnerness. I've been numb for the last four days, but tonight I'm going to fix it.



"Sober" by Kelly Clarkson


And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me


Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over


And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time


Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no


Wake up


Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months and I still am


Three months and it's still harder now
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months


Three months and I'm still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up


Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers