i was born in california and wonder what life would be life if i hadnt moved. im the oldest sibling and wonder how things would be if i wasnt. my parents are still married and i wonder how i would feel if they werent. i use to cut myself and wonder if i would still be here if i hadnt stopped. ive been a Christian since i was six and wonder who i would be without God.
and on top of all that wondering i wonder if wondering about the life i never had even matters? is anyone with me?! i mean, you cant miss what you never had, not really anyway!
the way i see it is the life i wonder about isnt the life i was suppose to have and i should be grateful that my parents arent divorced and that im still alive! sometimes i think that by, even slightly, wishing for the life i never had im telling God He doesnt know what Hes doing. and truth be told, if i had that life i probably still wouldnt want it.
i guess with all of this what im trying to say is that for those of you who are fortunate enough to have been spaired from the unfortunately common hurts of this world, dont take it for granted. dont ask why your life has been spaired that heartache, just be thankful! and for those whos lives have been riddled with tragedy, i promise you theres a reason. some are strong enough to find their way out of that darkness while others need to be carried out. your triumph through the heartache brings hope to those who feel that hope doesnt exist!
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